Broken Inside

Here we go, a poetic update (if you want to call it that.....)
Well, enjoy and see you all again next time!

Forgotten again
the assignments given
another zero
to add to my falling grade.

A test today
I managed to study last night
but in vain
I failed the test
information was never absorbed.

Formulas to memorize
but I cannot recall
what the functions I need are
and I guess the answer to the problem
knowing that I might as well have left it blank.

Voices all around me
lecturing about the numbers on the paper
I am not meeting their expectations
and they are angry
that I cannot manage to know what I have been taught
they cannot understand why I fail.

Voices all around me
wishing for me to be what I have not become
they wish for me to acheive
what I think I shall never be able to accomplish
to go where I can learn more
yet I do not believe I will ever make it there.

I tried to learn
yet even so I fell behind again
and my mind once more
rejected that which it fails to understand
and once more
I fail
and I wish for an escape from this reality.

One spirit ties me down
and I cannot bear to loose that
which holds me together.

My fragmented self
torn apart by my depression
the abuse I give to my mind
as I scold myself for my failure
yet it never changes
my stubborn mind refuses to budge
from where it is set.

Tears unseen
and tears that flow freely
my mind wishes to shatter
and end its torturous existance.

However I cannot let that happen
I must remain as one
for that one spirit that I now live for
who holds my heart
so I must stay strong.

Voices all around me
drag me down into the darkness of my heart
and once more I drift in the night
my soul aching to reveal itself
yet my talents are not welcome
so they stay hidden inside me
sealed away from the world
where they cannot grow.

News March 2nd 2009

Ok first off! Linkage!:
New Comic Series: http://www.drunkduck.com/Pokemon_Crimson_and_Azure_Version/index.php
Art and Stuff!: http://ronandarksky.deviantart.com/
My Yahoo: neko_punk@yahoo.com
Xbox360 GamerTag: HedgeCloud

Ok, so yeah I am sorry I have been dead for a bet, turned seventeen woot! So, let us see what has happened so you guys can know what is going on with me. First off, I am going to be an adult in a year or so, meaning that I have to make money; so soon I will be trying to sell merchandise here are a few examples. With my new comic series I hope to get enough fans to get me to make shirts of the characters, considering that pokemon is (C) nintendo, but my characters aren't. So besides that, I will also try to publish my book soon, free viewing of few of the chapters will be on my deviantart. Stay tune for new and interesting stuff, I swear!

Hello~

New Chinese new year, hope every one's lunar year is a good one!

I have a few poems I would like to share with everyone next time. So stay tuned and I'll put them up eventually. Also, we're still working out a main stream comic but we do have page one of a Pokemon fan-fic comic up on DrunkDuck. Hope you all check it out!